Landscape

Poetics: Embodying a Landscape

I stand by the window

The sun is rising and the birds are singing

Cotton wool clouds pass by

I imagine they tase like sugar

Big, juicy bundles of cotton candy

As sweet as marshmallow

The thought makes me feel full inside

Like it is worth staying another day

I would like to walk over grass again – climb a tor, see the sea

I wonder how that would feel – if it would be painful walk backwards

Perhaps finding different places of safety is like moving on

Keeping the few happy memories of youth alive in my mind

I am always moving inside – escaping, surviving

But I am trying to absorb myself in the landscape I have for now

Perhaps even thinking of a world outside and beyond is a start

More fulfilling than powders and pills

I leave my curtains open and wait for a buttery sunrise

I hope it embraces me and makes me feel safe.