Snow

Poetics: New Year Snow

I remember the snow, how it packed my knees like ice cream in the freezer

Something delicious but fleeting

I imagine the flavours – chocolate, strawberry and vanilla

Your kiss melting, my world collapsing – I lost everything to the snow – I lost you

Perhaps that is why I fear falling – the extra bruises and shame

What if I had been different, what if we had seen each others vulnerabilities

Just as snow melts, turns to spring and heat there is no going back – no changing things

Things can only be written and made as they are – as they will be

The why’s and maybes lost like snowflakes –

Everyone a little different as they fall to the ground

I still do not fully understand why you chose to leave, not even after all these years

I do not understand why I loved you –

You did not treat me well and I was too young to know what love meant

I remember the snow – the cold and bracing breaths

The gritters driving on the street in the early hours underneath my window

Making things safe in the land of my dreams –

Maybe I was happy that I made it there at all

It was a fleeting place, a flurry, and one I did not treasure quite enough at all

All to soon beautiful and then melting.